Wednesday, April 04, 2012
It's R-r-r-r-r-r-r-r-r-rock CJ time again!
This is Sian's journal - and it's all about song lyrics - always a great subject to work with
The brief was simply to choose a rawk song or two whose lyrics are particularly meaningful to me, and, well, art 'em up!
I couldn't just choose the one, as yet again it would be Pearl Jam and I've already bored everyone's socks off in this circle with PJ stuff - and once I expanded the scope to two songs, it was hard to stop - so I ended up with four:
I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worst
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
Back when I was fresh out of a pretty awful marriage followed by another less than successful relationship, I was feeling pretty sorry for myself. Like you do.
And I used to listen to this song a lot and dream a little dream about meeting some guy who was just as messed up as me and how we would kind of heal each other....or something :)
Instead I met a wonderful man who is totally sane and not messed up in the slightest - and it turns out that is an even better plan! :D
But I still love the song :)
You can spend your time alone, redigesting past regrets
Or you can come to terms and realise, you're the only one who can't forgive yourself
Makes much more sense, to live in the present tense
This one had to be in the mix somewhere - after all if a song's lyrics mean so much to you that you get them tattooed on your leg, then the chances are they are pretty important!
I already mentioned the god awful marriage, didn't I?
Well that lasted 12 years - at least 8 of which, maybe more, I shouldn't have put up with.
For a long time I beat myself up for not getting out sooner, and all the crap that my two sons (now grown up) ended up living through - and all the crap that I lived through too
This song literally changed my life as it made me snap the hell out of it and start living my life for the now instead of obsessing about how rubbish the past was
Thank you PJ!
When your leader's gone, he means to make you strong, he never went away. Because what you need, you are.
I'm not overly keen on the handwriting on this one, I wanted to write all the lyrics by hand because it's more personal and all - but this one turned out a bit of a mess. Ah well.
This is an amazing song, and it helped me through some difficult times - when you feel like you're on your own, don't panic, be strong - you have it in you to get through this.
Grind by Alice In Chains
You'd be well advised, not to plan my funeral before the body dies....
This last little snippet is something I mutter under my breath sometimes .... I'm a bit of a soft touch, and people take advantage of that from time to time - but those who really take the piss tend to find out too late that they under-estimated me.
Don't write me off as harmless, people, not until the body dies.....
(ok, now you all think I'm a psycho, I'm nice really, honest!)